"Imperfect as my love does go,
This human heart is all I know."

So i'm feeling like this is my life lately. It seems like the world is slowly crumbling around us, and yet we keep soldiering on, turning a blind eye. So let me just get this out there. PAY ATTENTION. Things are starting to get out of hand, with everything. We're still fighting a useless war, our economy is in the tank, theres a flu thats killing children, and discrminiation is being put into the constitution by a majority vote. How the hell did we get here? I spent all of today watching clips of the Ellen Degeneres show. And for anyone who has seen that show, you know that it's utterly hysterical. But it's also amazing. As i was waching, I couldnt believe all of the things she has done for people and done for the world. She brings out the best in people, and people in turn bring out the best in her. And i don't understand why we can't all operate like this. Live, laugh, love: is that such a bad way to live your life? I don't claim to be perfect, and I definitely don't consider myself to have all the answers to the problems the world faces, but it seems to me that this could be one of them. Live, Laugh, Love. Three little things. Live your life. Don't put off to tomorrow what you can do now. Sieze the day. Let yourself laugh. Even when the world is falling, even when the future seems black, its okay to laugh. When I die, I want people to laugh about all the things I did when i was living, not cry about all the things i wont get to do now that im gone. And most of all love. Love yourself, love your family, love your friends, love your enemy. Because if everyone gives a little more love, just a little more to just one person, soon, there wont be any more enemies. There wont be any more reasons to wage war. Which means no more reasons for children to march off to fight a battle they can't win, to fight for a country that is falling apart at the seams. Literally. America is supposed to be the land of opportunity, a melting pot of cultures where freedom is the number one. Well here I am in America, and every day I see people made fun of, picked on, and bullied for being who they are. I see laws being passed about specific groups of people, denying them human rights. HUMAN rights! We are ALL human. Not just the whites, not just the americans, not just the christians, or the wealthy, or the heterosexuals. ALL of us. And it makes me want to cry that people can't see this. That we are so blinded by prejudice and hate that we lose sight of what's really important, what really matters. We keep on marching forward, and never even notice that there are people left behind. Never even notice that there are those who can't march any further. And i say we need to look back. Stop your marching and glance over your shoulder. Maybe you'll see the old men who spent their entire lives together, and still can't get married. Maybe you'll see the little girl, whose family is being torn apart and there's nothing she can do to stop it. Maybe you'll see the teenagers who bravely go to school every day, hiding their shame and their lonliness. Maybe it's someone you know, someone you love. Look back. Pay attention. Open your eyes. We are not helpless, and we are not alone. We are 6 billion human hearts strong. So live with an open mind, laugh with open arms , and love with an open heart.

"What the world needs now, is love, sweet love."

cuz im cool like that and Z'ev told me to...

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100 Truths

001. Name → Jacqueline (say nothing)
002. Nickname(s) → Jackie, Jack-a-lack, Chickadia, Bob the Bean, Danny Boy, hey you, the list goes on...
003. Status → currently dating one lycanthropic hottie
004. Zodiac sign → Taurus
005. Male or female → female
006. Elementary → Shady Grove
007. Middle School → da Moody-ness
008. High School → MLWGS
009. Smart → only when I try to be
010. Hair color → brown
011. Long or short → Medium
012. Loud or Quiet → depends on where i am and who im talking to
013. Sweats or Jeans → jeany jean jeans
014. Phone or Camera → camera... since my phones in a coma
015. Health freak → nope
016. Drink or Smoke? → i would drink in moderation when im 21, smoking is just stoopid
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → ummmm... undecided
018. Eating or Drinking → food
019. Piercings → blech
020. Tattoos → *shudders*

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → see above ^
024. First best friend → Lyndsay
025. First award → i won all the reading awards at HES i think..
026. First Crush → kindergarten, Ed... he was a hunk
027. First Pet → dog named Ebone
028. First Big Vacation → uhh... Skiing? maybe Niagra Falls? dont remember
030. First Big Birthday → prolly Bat-Mitzvah was the biggest...

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → it up
050. Drinking → in life
052. I'm about to → cry
053. Listening to → RENT original broadway sountrack
054. Plans for today → finish anthony's book...

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → prolly
059. Want to get married? → uh-huh
060. Careers → book editor, writer (dream on), artist

WHICH IS BETTER WITH OPPOSITE SEX?
068. Lips or Eyes → eyes
070. Shorter or Taller? → tall-ish
072. Romantic or Spontaneous → prolly a bit of both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → muslces are good, but not like body builder-esque
074. Sensitive or Loud? → sensitive, but someone loud enough to stand up for themselves
075. Hook-up or relationship → can i hook up in my relationship?
077. Troublemaker or hesitant → a nice blend of both

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → course
081. Ran away from home → thought about it...
084. Broken someone's heart → i never really know... have i?
085. Been arrested → not that i remember
087. Cried when someone died → only in the movies

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → sometimes
090. Miracles → always
091. Love at first sight → always
092. Heaven → i havent decided
093. Santa Claus → of course
094. Sex on the first date → no way
095. Kiss on the first date → maybe

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → mostly
099. Do you believe in God → yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag.

Dear ,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it the first of May outside of Chicago when I saw you drive out my father. I'm sure you're man enough to understand how boring you are. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep the results of your blood sample as a memory. You should also know that I always wanted to break eggplant-fetishism .

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,


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HOLY FREEKIN SNAP

i had SO MUCH FUN in NYC this weekend!!!!! for those of you who havent heard me ranting, i took a trip with my confirmation class to NYC and it was so amazing so imma tell you all what we did...

so first i had to get up at like 3 am so i could get to the airport at 5 and them we landed in NY at like 8 or something... so we went to the hotel, The Wellington , and dumped all our stuff and then we went and took the subway to the Lower East Side and we went to this Bialy store and got REAL bagels!!! like really crusty on the outside and warm and soft on the inside... i got a challah bagel and it was amazing... and then we went to the tenemant museum and that was cool and then we went to Katz's deli for lunch which has the most delicious sandwhiches EVAH, second only to carnegie deli on the other side of town.. me and my friend Megann split a brisket sanwhich cuz they're HUGE and you have to like push and shove to get peoples attentions so you can order.. hee hee.. it was fun... and my friend Tucker was behind me like the whole time so im talking to him but looking ahead and when i turn around mid-sentence he's like dissapeared and the random guy behind me was looking at me like i was a lunatic or something... sheesh... then we got to take a cab to battery park and go to the Jewish Heritage museum, which was a tad depressing and all but still kinda cool, and then we walked through battery park and you can see the statue of liberty so i held up this giant pencil i bought in lower east side and my friends took a picture of me it was great and then we walked all the way back to our hotel in mid-town and got dressed for services... we hopped back on the subway and went to BJ which is this conservative tenmple.. and it was AWESOME... the sanctuary is totally gorgeous and the service was amazing... Tucker made me get up and dance too anyway so then we walked to this Chinese restaurant called Ollie's which has the best fried rice i have ever tasted and we played with chopsticks and it was fun then we went back to our hotel and passed out...
DAY 2: wake-up call at 7:30 stirred murderuous intent within my soul... not to mention the fact that my roomie DIDNT WAKE UP when this phone rang, and it was freekin loud... scared the crap out of me... so we had to dress up again for services and we went to Central Synagogue which was reform and more like ours at home and i felt a whole lot more comfortable we had a good time and we got to watch a girl go through her bat-mitzvah so that was fun and then they had a kiddush afterwards and there were HAMENTASHENS!!! like the BEST hamentashens i ever had... i had 3 lessee... then we went back to the hotel to get changed and i wore the new t-shirt that i bought on the street for like 3 bucks and we went to Ray's pizza which has NY style pizza just like Ed's and it was delicious we brought two boxes back to the hotel... so we walked to 5th avenue and down to St. Peter's cathedral which is absolutely stunning... and then we went through rockefeller center to go to broadway where we saw Hairspray which was totally PHENOMENAL!!!!! it was amazing... and the guy who played Link was really sexy... his name was Ashley Parker Angel And they had this whole sequence of Jew jokes and our two rows were the only people laughing.. we totally lost it.... so then we went to Sammy's Roumanian Restaurant on the Lower East Side and this was by far my favortie part of the trip... this is like the coolest restaurant EVAH.. you go down these stairs and the ENTIRE ROOM is FILLED with photgraphs.. its awesome... and they NEVER STOP BRINING YOU FOOD!!! and the one rule was that we had to try it all... so i had chopped liver (which was totally gross) and knish and latkes and all manner of amazing food and we had this hysterical DJ and we all got up and danced the horah and it was so much fun i love being around other Jewish people.. it makes me feel like i fit in so well.. it's just a great feeling... so then we walked to St. Marks street and i totally saw my first ever gay bar... very exciting... so we walked down St. Marks street which is like the street of tatoo parlors and lingerie and all manner of fun shops... and we got 30 minutes to just run around St. Marks and there was this creepy guy checking us out and we got yogurt at Pinkberry's and it was fun then we got to walk through times square and that was totally cool... lots of great pictures!!! and we went to the Colony Music store and i bought the official RENT music book with photos of the original production!! eeeeeeeee!!! and i got a t-shirt at Sammy's too!! it says Smaltz it Up! on the back so then me and my roomie were like hanging in our hotel room and the Birdcage comes on, so of course we have to watch it and we didn't go to bed until like 1
DAY 3: wake-up call at 7 am inspires me to chuck the telephone out the window... oppurtunity denied after Rabbi called to make sure we were rising from the dead... at least we didn't have to dress up this morning... so we got summore bagels for breakfast and packed up all our luggage, turned in our room keys and such and walked through rockefeller plaza to NBC studios, where we got the inside tour of all the broadcasting centers i bought some official Scrubs scrubs from the gift shop... so after that they let us loose in the Brazilian Street Festival and told us to be at 55th street by noon... well we had SO MUCH FUN. omg i bought a new bag for only 9 bucks and its the coolest bag ever... and then i bought 12 new bracelets for a dollar and it was so cool and then unfortunately, our time was up.. we got our bags, went to JFK and waited the arrival of our plane... all in all, an AMAZING end of summer trip... maybe i'll put some pics up eventually and yes, i know this is like THE longest journal ever, but yeah

in other news, school starts on tuesday... ACK. but i think im finally getting my macbook tomorrow!!! YAY